WHY CANT MY GRANDFATHER DIE (or not be satan in the flesh ) SO I CAN GO TO A BETTER COLLEGE THAT ISNT CLOSED HALF OF ALL SCHOOL DAYS IUGLDGCVLD

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I am applying at lewis and clark and puget sound because they do not have weird rules about community college ( that i am aware of or that their website's indicated, although i emailed their admissions officers for my areas.) I very much screwed up this year but i would really enjoy the college experience sort of thing and i really like these schools so maybe they will let me in? I dont know if i could pay for it, though i will probably apply as an indepenent because if i got any money it would be a small amount and from my grandfather. I am scared to apply for fear of rejection, but Im going to give it a shot anyway because i like these schools. I really liked puget sound but figured it out to late. Though I have a very good chance of getting in there. I would though prefer lewis and clark because it is more prestigious and i also have family in oregon that i could hang out with on the weekends and such and they have connections to a lot of vets because of their farms. but we will see
i went to the zoo today and that was super fun. i love the turacos.
i also concur i mostly saw bridget but i guess that is fine because i like spending time with bridget etc.
i am tired. my dog is also sleeping. ah i love my dog.
going to colunteer more then i have been at humane society because i really like doing it, its just hard to find a time that doesnt conflict with me/gabes classes etc. i also wish i hada more peculiar hobby to put on my application. i suppose i could list bird watching but i feel because its not like a team that it doesnt count or something like that. eh oh well its what i like to do, dont get me wrong i like my colunteer jobs etc but i really enjoy that sort of thing with animals and such more then with people. i dont know if thats alright but whatevr I DO WHAT I WANT. not really but sometimes
thanksgiving was delicious because we bought a premade meal. very very tasties.
i saw a seal in the river the other day which was very exciting, but apparently theyre following the salmon upstream this year because of low amounts of krill. bah climate change etcebjcikh
blarg id like to get into one of these colleges so now i am anxious but i guess it wouldnt be that bad hangin out at sacramento and doing the spca/zoo/hearts and hooves stuff along with as many units of community college as humanly possible. and perhaps a job perhaps, but im way too picky and need to lower my expectations for such things. i feel like im finally getting my shit really together but it also feels a year or so too late. its better then never i guess. its been nice being home
i went out to the horse farm thing yesterday which was nice. they have a really adorable pony
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i think i want to start painting/drawing and so on again because ive actually really missed it while at humboldt. really the main reason i do it is too make shit i like or would like to hang in my room. not the most noble reason to make art but i dont think it really fucking matters anyway
i hope everyone and their families had a really good thanksgiving!

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I called gabe a penis in the car. so we get home and he pouts about it and im like buck up or your sleeping on the sofa. so hes like ill just leave. and im like fine give me my backpack. and hes like you go get it. then he has the nerve to tell me be in a better mood when i get back. dont come back mother fucker.

I COME HOME NOW

I feel stupid. I realize I'm not very intelligent or original.
I am angry I am going to community college. I am very angry Im still afraid of people. Its a sad thing when making eye contact seems like a huge accomplishment. I hope I dont end up living at my parents house for eternity and never getting married like my creepy hairy uncle who lives with my grandma and talks to her dog and the television. Though he did do an ass load of acid in high school. His idea of small talk is bowel movements.
I am going to start bike riding/running when I move back because it gives me some sort of direction/purpose/confidence. I think me and gabe are going to break up when we move back because i dont think we make a very good couple. To be honest theres a dozen or so reasons that are somewhat difficult to explain as to why, but it seems to be at this point wholey justified but it seems weird in large part because he was the first person I had sex with. And its just like how would I have sex with someone else, obviously this is very far down the road but the idea seems incredibly abstract. I mean you know the dick goes in the pussy but i dont know, emotionally it seems abstract. It will also be weird to learn how to masturbate again. This shouldnt be a large concern but its a concern none the less.
I feel like there's bubbles in my head. I want to be a stupid drunk slut. But not really, its in the same way that i want to rob a bank. Fuck I love that song Janie Jones, it is so good.
I really wish I figured this shit all out say 8 months ago. I wish I randomly had a good paying job. Im going to bother the petco by my house until the hire me. Fuck them.I can wash mother fucking dogs and be happy about it.
also I found a giant crab at the beach yesterday and it bit me. I also found baby hermit crabs.

The flu is evil. I am on many steroids for my lungs and have a ridiclious ear infection that i should go get medicine for. Plus i have a headache and a cough so every time i cough me head seizes with pain. MUST GET BETTER SOON.
I also am bored with going to school with all white people
There is also a evangical preacher in the quad yelling about fag sin and such. He has been here all week in protest to the anti hate week.
I also got searched for marijuana this weekend. next week i hope will be excellent

my in inability to deal with anxiety is ruining my life










bummer

Im in the computer lab like normal. This lady started to talk to me which is nice. I dont know why she did but I appreciate it. her name was marozatlan? I dont know it was long. She was really pretty, a tall red head with freckles but not a ginger. I was suprised she was talking to me because she was so pretty.
I did my speech today and it went well considering i didnt practice it and finished writing it an hour before it was due. I didnt have to go till tuesday but i wanted it over with and ib trained us to give speeches since the sixth grade so it was okay. I really like this girl named martha in that class. she did her's on the cuttlefish. she has a mohawk but braided it today to be fancy for her speech. It was cute. she wore wool pants over her huge doc martens too. she is cute and almost started crying in her speech which made her cuter.
I am sad that i am coming back to sacramento. I should be happy because it is sameness and sameness is comfort. But I just feel like im moving backwards and downhill. I also dont know what to do with gabe. I think he assumes i want to stay together but i do not think i do. i need to learn how to be alone. I havent had to confront any thought or feelings about anything for 3 years because ive been using him to distract myself. I think it would be healthy to be alone, but i also have a terrible fear of being alone which is only exacerbated by everyone being in college or being in college shortly. I don't know at least i have stumpy?
its just a very awkward feeling because he feels like family as well as a boyfriend. Plus he doesnt have many places to go considering his mom never graduated high school and now has to support herself and a kid and him. I feel a sort of evil vengeance for this, for all the times he stood up for her stupidity and her laziness it will bite him in the ass every day when he goes back. It is very guilty to take pleasure in these thoughts. but i resent him a lot. i resent that he does not take his school as seriously as i want him to. i resent he has no concrete plan. that i ask him to do things and he does not. these things used to make me so angry because it would bother me that i would be with someone acting this way. but now it does not because ive resolved myself to giving up on him after at least a year of trying. i think i tried hard enough. but it is a very sad feeling to give up and it creates a lot of emptiness. but it is wrong to change people even if it is "for the better" because it does not work and makes everyone feel bad.
I do not know how to be alone. I am scared i will never get married and live in my parents house until i am thirty. I feel very bad and desperate. I will have to lose weight or i will feel terrible about myself. but who am i losing it for? is it still for men?why. why would i do that and wear nice clothes. is it important to me or do i think its important to those around me.Will i ever date again? who would i date? i feel bad about this because i cannot accept uncertainty. I feel as if everything must be in lists and steps and if an idea is not in these processes then it is invalid. I do not have much confidence in myself in any regard anymore. I am no longer pretty and have since given up on the presumption that i am in any bit unique or interesting and it is sad sometimesbecause i sincerely feel this way. I cannot approach people who i find interesting or attractive very easily, it is frustrating and isolating. I was telling leila a little bit about this last yearand she said youre just one of those people that thinks everyone hates them when theyreally dont say much about you. but is it worse to be so insignificant that youre not worth an opinion?
i went to the homecoming game with cathy this weekend. It was hard to connect because she is even shier then me in some regards and it was tiring.
Really all i want is a job that i like and a car and someone i like to sleep with and a small house with nice insides with trees. but it seems so far off. and it is hard because there is no plan.
i become really sad about shelter dogs now. there is this dog on the sspca website who is old named bruiser who i really want to get adopted and not be put down that i actually started praying about it. its not fair that people would kill something that just wants to love them and get affection, i can not even think of anything more evil. why am i sentimental? what is wrong with me?

Humboldt Squid

Intro line-A. There is an invasion going on now on a massive scale not more then a few miles from us. No, not aliens however this creature is as alien as it comes on earth,.
II. The Humboldt squid, a huge veracious predator. has expanded its range from a top region of south/ central America where it normally resides all the way to Alaska in just a few years-decimating fish populations and scaring divers and fishermen out of the water as it makes its presence known
-------------Here are photos of them washed up in Orange County and here they are in Vancouver (photos California/ Vancouver)
A. The spread of this invasive species is not only affecting our local ocean’s ecology but also the fishing industry’s economy and serves as a startling message about our oceans declining health as a result of over harvesting and global climate change.
B. I’m actually fairly familiar with the Humboldt squid
1..I originally become interested in this topic one day when I was home with the flu and trying hard to find something to watch on day time television. The discovery channel was playing a program on the Humboldt squid , and since then I’ve been very interested in these unique and sometimes beautiful creatures.
C. In this speech I will be covering the most immediate question of what exactly are these animals and why they are unique, along with how did this expansion happen and why then is it so significant?

II. The Humboldt squid is very much the ideal sea monster.
A. Physically the Humboldt squid is a very impressive beast.
1.The squid can weigh over a 100 pounds and reach up to seven feet in length.
2.Each of its long tentacles are covered with razor sharp tooth like suckers, and its has a large beak comparable to that of a macaw and twice as hard and strong.
3.It also has specialized cells on the skin of its body called chromatophores.
i These cells can change colors rapidly(many times a second) to communicate with other squid
B. The squids are very aggressive and efficient predators.
1.They actually been known on various occasions to approach and attack divers-injuring them and sometimes dragging them down to dangerous depths. They also are cannibalistic animals.
i In fact one researcher examined over 500 squid’s stomach contents and found about 30 percent of them contained other Humboldt squid.
2.Theyre very impressive hunters easily out maneuvering fish as they can propel them selves in any direction .
3.They rise to surface at night to feed upon higher dwelling animals.
C. They descend upon prey in large numbers in aggressive feeding frenzies.
1.They hunt in schools up to 1200 animals. Their populations are very dense.
i. An estimate by national geographic puts it at 10 million animals within 25 square miles off the coast of Mexico.
D. They have life cycles of only one year and start out as 25mm or so larvae, making their growth in its most basic sense very impressive.
1. That’s 1.5 mm a day!
2. If we grew at that rate until eighteen we’d be 32 and a half feet tall.
Being such a large predator it makes it that more impressive that it has invaded its new range with such speed.

III. But how has the Humboldt squid expanded its range so rapidly in such a short amount of time?
A. They began appearing off the California coast after a episode of el Niño in 2001, establishing first a viable population off the coast of Monterrey.
1. The upward water swells of el Niño allowed the squid to easily expand northward riding the current of these up wellings.
2. El Niño also causes warming of surface water.
iThis warming creates abundant amounts of plankton which is squid larvae’s favorite food. This also helped their populations get a foothold in these areas.
B. Furthermore squids reproduce these larvae extremely rapidly
1.Females reproduce at least once a year laying over 70 million eggs.
2.Their short life cycle and high reproduction rates allows them to out compete in population levels their natural competitors like tuna and swordfish. Because there is no seasonality to their reproduction the squids can respond quickly to changes in the environment and fulfill niches left open by declining fish populations
C.. The oxygen minimum layer ( the depth where oxygen levels in the ocean reach almost zero)where the squid normally live during the day may also be expanding further benefiting the Humboldt squid.

But why should we be so concerned, episodes of invasive species occur all the time right?
Not quite
IV. This specific expansion is significant and alarming because…
A. Invasion of species at high levels on the food pyramid are very rare.
B. Also climate changes in fish distribution have typically been range displacement not the massive expansion we see here.
1. For example animals typically move their populations to a different area rather then keeping their old habitat while expanding it into new locations like the Humboldt squid is doing.
C. This example of climate change expansion is also particularly unique because Humboldt squid reside at very deep depths where it is typically very cold.
1. This insinuates that climate change is not just at the shallow depths of the ocean but much farther reaching as the squid inhabit depths of over 2000 feet.
D. The range that they have expanded into also over laps significantly with large and commercially valuable fish.
1. A fisherman in Washington reported accidentally catching 30 Humboldt squids along with his small catch of 40 salmon The Humboldt squid also has an extremely high metabolisms.
E. Humboldt squid are also caught commercially off of México when they rise at night to feed.
1. They are fished in large numbers and shipped to Korea and China -however there has been no effect on their populations what so ever from this unregulated fishing as they continue to expand.
F. The Humboldt squid also has an extremely high metabolisms and must consume large amounts of food themselves.
1.They must eat 15 percent of their body weight each day
2..which would be comparable to us eating about 20 pounds of food in a day.
3. It is easy to see how in large numbers they could decimate native species of fish.

V. The Humboldt squid is a beautiful animal in its effectiveness in what it does.-reproduce and consume.
A. Because of its efficient nature along with climate change and over fishing by humans the Humboldt squid has been able to expand its range in an extremely rapid fashion.
1. It now resides from Chile to Alaska on the pacific ocean in large populations
B. But the tale of the Humboldt squid’s expansion is about more then its frightening demeanor and its competition with us for natural resources, its about the state of our planet.
1.The Humboldt squid is not an “evil” organism it is simply fulfill a space in the ocean’s ecosystem that has been decimated by humans over the past century through over harvesting of its organisms and through our massive green house gas emissions
2.We should take a warning from the Humboldt squid and pay attention to our actions as citizens of this earth for the good of all organisms.
























Sources:

From Humboldt data base
“synergistic effects of climate related variables suggest future physiological impairment in a top oceanic predator” Rui, Rosa. http://www.pnas.org .
“invasive range expansion by the Humboldt squid in the eastern pacific” Zeidburg, Loius. Monterey bay aquarium research institute. March 5, 2007
“the curious case of the cannibal squid” Tennesen, Michael. National Wildlife Magazine .dec 2004/jan 2005 vol. 43 issue 1
“its hard out here for a shrimp” Zimmerman, Tim. Outside Magazine. July 2006
“California Invasion of the Giant Squid” New York Times. July 12, 2009
Outside the data base
“WA state lets fishermen sell salmon eating squid “ September 13, 2009 seattletimes.mwsource.com
“Humboldt Squid” www.wikipedia.com 10/16/2009

Im going to sac city next semester and im going to do a TAG to ucdavis for an animal biology major because:
wildlife biology careers are depressing/extremely political/ EXTREMELY TIMES&%$^%$^ buerocratic/limited/bad pay/pointless ( as in you dont really have any input into anything you just fill out forms)
eureka is a depressing place to live with lots of poverty/drugs/ no place to put my dog(obviously the most important)
i do not want to live/be with gabe forever
this is too expensive
i want to be a vet ( large goal i am aware)
i need to get my license/miss family/pets/things to do / other not very consequential miscellaneous

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Kate has A's bitches....!
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and a b...
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i was really angry in the 9th grade

I was at school today in this minetuare cafeteria is i guess the best thing to call it, and since i dont really have friends i eat by myself. So I listen in on conversations to pss the time of eating veggie wraps/pizza/sandwhich whatervers. There is one thing I hate that im sure during sophmore year i used to do, is when girls laugh really fucking loudly at whatever men say and only men. I wanted to just force that girl to suck all 100 or so dicks in the room. It was very very annoying . Maybe Ill just tell the next one to lick cock. I dunno.
I went to the doctor today and it seems every time i go to the doctor they assume Im pregnant. No ma'am I dont think so. Though it was amusing that the nurse had what had to be a healing crystal around her neck. pelvic exam tomorrow. balls.sss
I miss high school because you could asses every one easily, its not so easy later.
I think Im going to do my informative speech on the conversion of our oceans biomass into jellyfish. Im hesitant to start it for fear of a better topic but i better just do it anyway. Maybe dog mills? animal rights go rabble rabble rabble.
I dont want to go to lab. We have to dissect a pig and my partner does not want to cut the pig. this poses a variety of issues for me , who needs to cut the pig. She also will not let me cut the pig. she is also very proud of being italian. I wated this girl called lenadon i think , was even sitting with her and yet alas. fuck fetal pigs.
the homeless people here ask for pot not money.
i had a donut today and it was good. i feel guilty but fuck it cover me in custard

I think I might change my major to zoology

Terms
1) Ecology- the scientific study of interactions among living organisms and their abiotic/biotic environment
2) Conservation bio- a crisis science that utilizes ecological principles in addressing environmental problems
-habitat destruction, declining populations, threatened an endangered species, loss of biodiversity
3) Wildlife management- the practical application of ecological knowledge to balance the needs of animal populations and people
4) parsimony- when two competeing explanations appear equally possible accept the simpler
Deductive/inductive principal to case versus principal inferred from specific cases
Ethics- a discipline dealing with the logical arguments used to determine what is good and is based on society’s moral judgements
Monetization-instrumental value of biodiversity expressed in monetary terms
Instrumental value- value on what the subject or object has to offer someone else
Intrinsic value- inherent to the being or object being considered
Moral agents- beings capable of acting morally
Moral subjects- beings that aren’t moral subjects but deserve moral consideration
Biocentric- values indicidual organisms , individual intrinsic value
Ecosyntric value- values species/ecosystem, humans are a plain member and citizen opf larger world
Anthrocentric- animals are instrumental, and human beings only have intrinsic value
It is a APPLIED SCIENCE
REMEMBER
1) Evolution unites all of biology
2) The biotic world is very dynamic and largely driven by non equiliberalecological interations
3) 3) Humans are a primary cause of our current ecological crisis and humans must be included

Recognize
Definition of wildlife is diverse
Management implies human manipulation
Until the 1960s wildlife managemtn was pretty much game management
In 1800s it was mostly putting restrictions on harvest

ALDO LEOPOLD_ father of wildlife management. Wrote Game Management, cofounded the Wildlife society, Wrote a sand county almanac, created consept of ecological conscious, said forestry principals can be applied tro game species, Species have a RIGHT to continuation
Theodore Roosevelt-initiated national wildlife refuge system, founded the Boone and Crocket Club, at end of his term there were 51 refuges
Gifford Pinchot-first chief of us forest service, founded American society of foresters
ERA OF ABUNDANCE- settlement to 1849
ERA OF EXPLOITATION 1850-1900
ERA OF PROTECTION 1901-1930
ERA OF GAME MANAGEMENT-1930-1966
ERA OF ENVIRONMENTAL PROTECTION 1966 present

DATES
1639-first limited deer hunt season
VERY FIRST GAME LAW---1832 game on tribal lands for tribe members
1872 yellowstone created
WHO OWNS GAME??? STATESSS- 1896 supreme court says states own game
1900-LACEY ACT!!!- transportation of illegally acquired game across state lines
1903-creation of pelican island refuge
1918-Migratory Bird Treaty Act/Leopold makes game management field
1934- MIGRATORY BIRD hunting stamp act
1937-Robertson Pittman Act- 10 percent tax on sales of sporting guns and ammo, revnue to wildlife management
1966 ENDANGERED SPECIES PRESERVATION ACT
Market hunting depleted bird populations
For plumage –trumpeter swans 17,500 between 1853 and 1877
Killed man egrets during breeding season for plumes
Used punt guns ( similar to cannons to kill as many birds as possible)
BISON
US Army depleted populations as a way to weake Indian tribes, railroads provided easy access to herds,efficient repeating rifles, only tongue and hides used, 3 to 5 animals shot for everyone 1 that made it to market, between 1871 and 2 8.5 million animals shot-----only 150 remained in the wild by 1889
Refuges created in Montana , south Dakota and Nebraska. Population at Yellowstone national park steadily increased restoration programs in Europe and Canada. However the elimination of their natural predators is still an issue as they no longer have available land for a population surplus
PASSENGER PIGEON
Passenger pigeon meat was popular at upscale resteraunts, the babies even more so,no refrigeration so huge numbers of birds killed to offset the losses due tolack of refrigeration, telegraph gave new means of easily locating birds,lack of social efficiency
-heath hen, labardor duck
Carolina parakeet shot often to protect orchards as they ate fruit/seeds
Stellar sea cow eaten by sailors often not successfully killed 4 for everyone harvested
WOOD DUCK
Nesting habitats nearly eliminated, plus market hunting, WERE SAVED BY- The migratory bird treaty act ( under which theyw ere given complete protection), nest box program ( 1939), controlled lead poisoning, however as populations increased there were not enough nesting sites so nest box program 1939
Before there was a deposit of 3000 tons of led shot a year 1976 law established that created led hot spots. Finally in 1991 NO MORE LED
However fishing sinkers still pose a problem
TURKEYS- by 1930 wild turkeys had fallen from much of their former range, had many initial difficulties because the wrong subspecies were released in the wrong areas,

DEER. In 1600 33 million deer by 1900 only 3 million left !,
1920 rebounding populations
1974 million tagged legally, 1980 15 million, NOW at 30 million
BLACK FOOTED FERRETS
1981 redicovered in Wyoming
1985 crashed due to plague from ground hogs and canine distemper
1991 reintroduced to wild
NOW 18 reintroduced populations
SEA OTTERS- use fur alone no blubber, require lots of food compete with humans for that food, contamination of fur leads to death, distribution coinsides with shipping lanes, threat of killer whales because their food sea lions is gone
GRAY WHALES- preyed upon because of predictable migration and close to coast

OVER ABUNDANCE- reindeer, mule deer, black birds
Predator control in 1930s popular but started in 1914 when congress began funding it.
Economic value of whales is now non consumptive ( whale watching)
Foreign countries like Kenya also have large tourist attractions to their parks
LOGGING – in 1991 ruling to protect spotted owls , logging dropped by 87 percent but only 9 000 jobs lost, tmber industry already slowing down by then, automated mills and harvesting had already cut down on jobs considerably, most people who acquired jobs later made more money anyway
Farming wildlife – in example chinchillas which are almost extinct in their native habitats, ostrich farms for plumes, farmed wildlife can escape and cause issues for native populations
Lease fee hunting Is expanding in north America
Proposed idea of farming native African animals instead of cattle that do poorly there, heavy grazing coauses erosion , many plants absorb water at night so night feeders are more viable then day feeders like cattle, however much opposition from current meat trade wildlife preservation groups , lack of market, migratory habits of some species

I miss Paige

Im in the library on a friday afternoon and its nearly empty now. I don't know whoever designed this building but they weren't someone i'd want to meet. There's little windows in the corner of the rooms, little slits where sun filters through and you can see just small sections of the trees but nothing more and it makes you want to see the whole tree really badly. Im really fucked in any case, and its completely entirely my fault which is in my opinion the very worst kind of fucked. So Gabe decided next semester he's going to move home which is fine, I really don't want to be around him anymore anyway and he doesn't want to be around me.The decay of relationships is pretty sad even when you put gallons of formaldehyde into them. Im very depressed. I was looking around my zoology class and i realized that no one, not even the teacher knows my name and it made me really depressed. I want to make friends but Im too shy and not confident enough to ever stick myself out there first, and its hard though to assess because what you know about anyone is how they watch a lecture and what they wear. But I guess its worth asking, living without anyone was fine for a while but its actually pretty terrible.
So I have to find new housing somehow. The only two ads on craigslist that even sounded mildly appealing were from a lesbian couple , however this was literally on their ad:
"You may occasionally hear us at night if you know what i mean... you may also in the rare instance find that we sometimes misplace large phallic "accessories"... in the shower or just sort of strewn about."
which in all honesty I wouldn't mind an incredible much.
Theres also one from an old lady who is an "artist" -whatever that means -that sounds plausible. However with no car there's some pretty large issues aside from a 12 inch dildo.
I have like three months to do this but its still very very daunting. I could come home but I'd rather not i guess. I want to persue my education and i made it 356373553 times harder on myself then need be because Im a stubborn stupid ass.And if i did in fact come home I would probably be told that repeatedly anyway.
Im thinking of maybe trying to go to ucsc next fall because a completely fresh start would be really nice.
Man I don't even know what to do.

Its Hard To Support A President Who Supports Killing Babies And Giving Our Paid In Social Security To Illegal AliensAnd Supporting Gay Rights,Which We All Know Is Against Gods Laws.
from "everette"
This friday the muslims are gathering infront of the White House to pray and Pres. Obama is recognizing this as acceptable after saying that he did not want to recognize the Christain day of prayer "because it might offend someone"
I ask every Christain that reads this to be praying and fasting this friday. We need to ask God for his spirit to be poured out in a GREATER measure than EVER before! We need to ask God for his mercy to be poured out and for his protection over America.









PRAISE ALLAH




That is all i found this on some discussion polls and thought they were amusing. there were better ones but i was too lazy to go back and find them. Life is going pretty well. Had a very good weekend despite me and gabe "breaking up" though in reality our relationship hasnt changed in too many asppects/dynamics since then.school is good, i sat next to this one fellow today who looked like he crawled out from the ground and smelt worse then anything i have ever smelled in my life. literally. worse then dog shit, dead elephant seal, fermented vomit,menstrual blood, old menstrual blood etc
school is going well i have a huge midterm on monday that im studying before im just scared as the teacher i have grades really hard. But if any of you come up here ever i found some really cool tildpools this weekend, some of which are in this little cave thing. its really cool. I am depressed at my lack of freinds though im unwilling to approach anyone so it just kind of goes in circles anyway. my parents are coming up in two weekends which im actually fairly excited about.if not because theyre my parents then because it will be social interaction...
i also need to think of a topic for my "informative speech" ( i was originally going to do it on some obscure animal just for shits and giggles i.e. a flat worm/rhea/wild guinea pigs but it has to be important, though i suppose i could make flat worms important? my flatulance is impoartant because. your flatulence is important because.you are flatulence)
I also had a really interesting dream last night in which dr frankenfurter was death and made me eat bugs/the fellow who plays batman was my father, someone murdered him and made me tell them where he kept his father's clothes/a had to run from the cops as i was walking with a trash bag and that is illegal/me and bridget bought a pretzel and ate it with the spermopous/i lived in a community of asians (including monica sing and stephanie chow , they got angry at me for growing a clover monster so i hide in a glass house that was coincidentally dale gribbles but then stumpy gave someone the keys. my subconscious wanders a lot.
i cant wait to start volunteering at the human society
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